I'm starting to lose it

I have been taking a break from this blog for awhile because I have buried myself in other activities. Donna drives me crazy especially on weekends when their is no caretaker. Sometimes I feel like shipping her "to the moon"! She paces back and forth, back and forth, I tell her to sit down, and she goes into another room and asks if I am there. She is constantly lost. She has no "map" in her mind of the layout of the house. I can't get anything done on the weekend. She needs help for everything. Eating, drinking, dressing, brushing her teeth, going to the bathroom she can't do a damn thing without assistance. It's like having a 2 year old! Not only that, the amount I pay for her assistance and medication is draining me during this economic downturn. Sometimes I want to scream! WHY ME! WHY ME! Her mind is totally altered and the fact is, I am more frustrated than she is. The only frustration that I observe is when she tries to communicate. No one can figure out what she is talking about. Word substitution is way she speaks and this can drive a person crazy. Ironically, Donna thinks everyone else is crazy!